Kayla McIntosh
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Personal tell-all pieces: Word of the Day and Jail Journal. Secret poet on the side. ( I don't use Ai to write any posts, everything is done manually. )
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Jail Journal: Page 8. Content Warning.
I am sort of applying Cedar Hills strategy here: keep a Journal and try to do Qi Gong. The Qi Gong part is kind of out the window as I forgot a lot of the moves so I am just sort of dancing to myself in the mornings. Either way this whole thing is a super humbling experience, for sure.. Really the only thing I thought of or felt truly is regret of not visiting Yuuichirou before all this bullshit.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Criminal
Jail Journal: Page 6. Content Warning.
Last night's dream was a bit interesting. In one of them I saw a Kirin or giraffe creature that was quite supernatural looking It was just staring at me with these giant bioluminescent eyes, similar to what you'd see in night vision goggles.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Criminal
Jail Journal: Page 5. Content Warning.
I am annoyed. Not Being able to enter the Ether as easily anymore s doing that to me. These disturbing revelations don't really mean much to me as they are just shadows among the walls and the recesses of the inmates minds. Thank god my 6th house is in Leo, otherwise the stress of this place would've made me sick by now.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Criminal
Jail Journal: Page 4. Content Warning.
I thoroughly enjoyed last night's dream. I was shopping at a mall or something like that and I just so happened to see Chiro. Somehow we were both single and decided to leave together. Jahon came in like a jealous bad ass ex Russian boyfriend, trying to run into our car with a black kia or something. We evaded it which lead to a chase on the highway. We decided to go to the airport and flee to Japan.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Criminal
Jail Journal: Page 3. Content Warning.
I checked out 2 books, The Essential Kabbalah and Библия. The Kabbalah I feel is just a man's attempt to describe the ineffable through an Abrahamic lens. "The Anatomy of God", the 10 Sephirot, serve as some metaphysical system of the aspects of divinity, but even in the book they say the task is folly. They even made up some sort of unit of measurement: Parasangs. They attempt to describe it in physical measure, then ascend or descend into the fantastical. Maybe these old Rabbi were able to perceive multiple dimensions or something of that nature?
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Criminal
Jail Journal: Page 1. Content Warning.
Unfortunately, I didn't have enough common sense to date all the tissues I wrote on while incarcerated so, the beginning of this series might be chronologically out of order, but I have managed to write up to 79 pages throughout my stay in jail. To clarify, I was in there for a misdemeanor for harassment so, didn't hurt anyone majorly. I was in custody for 39 days and kept my time by continuing to write. It was sort of my blessing and curse.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Criminal
Gnarly Roots
I managed to find my way to a downtown hair salon. I am contemplating changing my look more significantly but I am also kind of just wanting to focus on getting more hair care than anything. Color is necessary, care is sort of optional at this point so, I feel the luxury comes from someone else doing that for me.. I think I should just stick with the usual until I am for certain that I want to do something more bold like a grey-pink or something of that sort. I have always wanted more of a sleek look though the top of my head has always been a bit flat, so I usually need some sort of volume there to balance out my face.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Confessions
High demand
I have no idea why but several people were hot on my ass last night. Kind of like a fury of sexual desire and it was so odd because the person I liked really didn't even care or was more taciturn. I am not saying this arrogantly, I have options right now. I think most women or feminine people are like that right now, but for whatever reason it was coming off pretty strong last night. Like people sort of sending me ravenous messages like I was an oasis in a vast desert.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Confessions
Feelings
My friend asked me recently what I thought about him. It is a hard question to answer. I feel there were so many things that happened. Being with him is kind of respite from most of the chaos that happens around me. I don't even know if it will be ok to go to my grandma's house. I don't want to say I am using you because I care about your wellbeing.. The world calls me, death is assured. I want to be happy too, and I do like the idea of not always being terrified of things. But I know you won't take me where I need to go.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Confessions
